Post Decreasing

I haven't notice this until a week ago...

But the number of post in my blog is decreasing, monthly...

So it started very well in May 2010... With 37 posts...

And then went down to 27 posts in June. July and August was tied at 19 posts..

Now September, down to the lowest ever... at 13 posts.. My God..

Part of the reason is my daunting Thesis... All I did nowadays is writing and writing.. and writing..

It's getting a little mundane..

William Lim

Mark 9:23

I love horror films. This is something unique about me that people doesn't have.

Even when I read the bible, I love reading the part about the "demon-possessed" or the "evil spirit" story. It made you believed that devils do exist. And they actually do...

Anyway, I was reading from "Mark 9:14-32" this morning in my humble cubicle; it told a story about a boy who was possessed with an evil spirit, and Jesus cast the evil spirit away from him.

Nothing peculiar.

But verse 23 looked absolutely tempting to my eyes.

Mark 9:23 - "Everything is possible for him who believes"

From my deepest form of knowledge, for you to believe, you must have faith... Right?

So if we rearrange the sentence, it will be come something like this:

"Everything is possible for him who has faith"

But the thing is, people should live by faith, not sights, neither feelings. Thus if we simplify this statement further, it becomes:

"Everything is possible when you live by faith"

And relatively:

"Everything is possible" = "Nothing is impossible"

Therefore, the final statement look like this:

"Nothing is impossible when you live by faith"

And I believed it.

I'm living by faith, nothing is impossible.

William Lim

Deadbeat

I'm feeling kind of deadbeat..

Looking to sleep for more than 12 hours...

Uni life will end in about a month time.

I can't wait for it to be over.

This year, peculiar things happened, coupled with a handful of miracles here and there.

But the year is not over yet.

So far, I learnt that I don't learn anything when I'm happy.

It's when I suffered and griefed, those were the best days of my life; because they made me who I was. I learnt a lot from those frantic moments.

Suffering is not a bad thing after all. But being deadbeat, is not a good thing too.

So I'm falling asleep now.

Night

William Lim

Final Year Presentation

My final year presentation is tomorrow afternoon, and frankly, I was a little worried.

Well, who wouldn't?

More than 30 academic people will be staring at you for something that you've done. They want you to tell them nice stories about your project.

It's a little bit like story-telling actually... Or should I say a film?

A good film, has a very compelling story line. Forget about the budget, the special effects and the star power. Everything comes down to the story. And so is this - my final year presentation.

How am I going to capture the audience attention is from the way I convey the story to them.

Still, it's a little bit daunting, given that my audiences will mainly comprise of Full-Blooded-Australians.

But in my time of nerve, God sent me an answer... from the toilet. I was reading "Luke" chapter 21... and verse 15 blew my sh*t out from my butt... =)

"For I will give you words and wisdom that none of your adversaries will be able to resist or contradict." - Luke 21:15.

Wow! What a moral booster and courage! I'm going to give those Aussies a memorable presentation from an academy-award winning film director - me! =D

Oh I love how the Lord loves me. It's the best thing in the world...

William Lim

Nine Talents

Alright... I've been living in this earth for 23 years now, and still running...

Looking back at all those years, a question popped in my head yesterday night, "How many talents do I have so far?"

Intriguing isn't it?

As complicated as it seems, I started counting them... I looked at myself in the mirror, and asked another question, "Have I been a blessing to others?"

"I did", I replied warily with a smile on my face, "and I'll never stop blessing people with what I have", I continued... speaking to the other part of me in the mirror.

I left it at that.

Next morning, while I was in the library, I started to list down the talents that I have so far; which God has provided me.

Here's the list:

1) I can produce a film
2) I can direct a film
3) I can edit a film
4) I can write stories, scripts, reports, thesis and daily reflections
5) I can play guitar
6) I can play bass
7) I can stand not eating for 24 hours
8) I can drive a car
9) I can change a car tyre in less than 15 minutes

It's only nine... I have nine talents so far. These may not include the hidden talents that I have, which I couldn't think of that day.

Anyhow, I'm amazed...

Those talents are purely and genuinely "me"... They live within me, and I control them. Most importantly, they're given generously by God.

I just hoped that I have used those talents to bless others...

When I said "bless others", it means that I give, or share to others what I have using my talents; and that they will be blessed by it.

So, my life is not over, and I can still produce more talents... For His glory of course. :)

William Lim

Lead Me - Sanctus Real

A perfect song for a perfect evening.

Be blessed.

William Lim

Negative Comments

I'm doing a final year thesis at the moment, and next week is the presentation day.

This thesis is about improving laboratory classes in East Timorese Universities, ultimately enhancing student's practical knowledge on water and sanitation in East Timor.

Nerveracking as it seems, I actually got everything under my belt, ready to speak about my undulating projects when all of a sudden I was swamped by negative comments - from my supervisors.

Can you believe that? My own project supervisors gave me stupid comments one month before the thesis' due date.

They told me that my thesis is too simple... And that I may not pass if I don't show the complexity of the project... I was like, "What the Hell???"

"What are you trying to say here?" I replied to them. And they said the project is too simple, and not up to the standard of an undergraduate...

That's a little bit mean to say...

This topic that I chose last year was put up by them, and now they told me this?

What a nice way to say that I would fail the final year project in advance...

After hearing those comments, I was in no mood in doing the thesis. What a waste of time...

I feel like quitting university now.. I hate engineering, there's no passion in me that wants to do engineering...

William Lim

PS: To my supervisors... "You're a perfect asshole".

Papi Mami

I've had a tough week last week... It was one of those weeks that I'd love to forget it as soon as possible.

It started pretty well. My aunt told me that she and her family are coming to Perth to visit me.. And then all of a sudden, my mum joined her.

Why?

Because my papi and mami are living seperately at the moment. Though, it's not a divorce..

So she decided to take the last minute ticket, and headed to Perth, while my dad headed to Singapore.

It's really sad to see them like this. The blaming game, the loneliness, the curses to each other, etc... They are really making a point that they shouldn't be together. Love was no where to be found in the marriage. Although, I could be wrong.

Another blow came.. My brother was in hospital Monday morning... He was taken in account of his gastritis (gastric) syndrome. But thank God he's fine now.

I wonder why on earth would he be lacking on food?? He ate like a lion for most of the time.

Anyway, after hearing stories from my mum for like 5 hours (my ears went numb after that), I'm pretty convinced that my papi may be at fault.

But again, I have no knowledge on who's right or wrong; they keep blaming each other for one thing, making it harder to judge them.

Now, my mami decided to seperate herself from papi as she wants him to change his attitude, and characters. She will not take him back unless he change his old attitude.

I've heard her saying that he's easily angered, and always find other's fault to cover his own mistakes; which I think it's true. This is one of the things that my mami hates about my papi. There are many more.

The thing about my dad is, he's a loner. This is really really sad. I'm not even sure if he has a friend to hang-out with till now. You know, like a best friend, the one who will hears him out and gives him advice, etc.. From here, I know that my papi actually doesn't has any best friend like we did.

My sister really pity him for this... But he chose this road himself, and nobody can blame him for this. He's a very introverted individual unlike my mami who's very extroverted.

For me personally, I'm so upset. Terribly upset. Whenever I received their sms, my heart, mind, and soul sunk deeper than Titanic. My studies and my life were affected. I mean how can you concentrate like this?

But you know what, God spoke to me through this verse: "Rejoice in the Lord always!" - Phi 4:4; and I did; even during the sadddd times, I'd still rejoice in the Lord. I know it's hard. But I'll put this to practice daily.

I learned that there's a reason for everything when I was younger. I don't know what the reason is now. But I know that I'll find out soon.

God so loves me that he sent his son Jesus, and also gave papi and mami to me. They are my true, wonderful parents. And nobody can take them away from me other than God Himself.

Even if they're seperated now, they will still be my parents. Seperation and divorce are not my decision to make. They are both up to my parents...

Although, their children will bear the consequences of the latter. Nevertheless, I'll support their decision if they decide to go on this way.

You know, when life is good, I realised that God is even better.

William Lim

Broken Radio

You know my mum...

She's definitely the best mum ever. She's tough, smart, wise, loves Jesus, beautiful, and also forgiving.

But wait, there's something more profound about her - she snores when she's asleep.

You can turn her sideways, ask her to close her mouth when sleeping, or give her something to bite when sleeping, and you will see that all those efforts are in vain. It's no use. Her snores triumph over my room.

I don't mind her snoring actually. It's just that, when I sleep together in the same room with her, I feel like I'm sleeping next to a broken radio.

Do you have any idea how terrible does a broken radio sound? It's aweful, and irritating... and obviously uncanny.

I can't sleep like this; and I can't keep waking her up telling her to stop snoring. That would be rude and unfair to her as she works hard for her kids.

So to be fair, I had to get out of the room, and sleep on the couch instead.

But in any case, I really need to find something that will help her not to snore.

Thinking hard..

William Lim

Speeding Tickets

Some people got a ticket for not displaying coupons ticket on their dashboard, while others got a ticket for not wearing seatbelt.

For me, I got speeding tickets...

Within a month, I already got 3 speeding fines, amounting to $375 altogether, with 4 demerit points in addition.

What a lovely gesture from the traffic marshalls here. If I haven't said so already, you're definitely the most hideous kind of all marshalls.

Australian drivers are afraid to break the rules, and hence they drove like a turtle running against the gushing waters; and apparently, I'm not.

I love speeding... and can't help it.. I guess that's how I drive most of the time, pushing the speed limits 15-20 km/h above the original limit.

Anyhow, I don't have a fancy car... but I'm not afraid to break traffic rules.

That I can guarantee.

Nighty night

William Lim

Am I Screwed?

I'm about to lose my mind any moment now. I've got questions, worries, querries, and doubts of whether I should continue living in Perth... Or go back to Singapore, my true home land.

I'm still thinking hard.

It's like having two lovers at the same time. hehe... Am I screwed?

In Perth, I still feel lonely, but I know I have been a blessing for the church. And frankly, I started to enjoy Perth these days. However, I don't have much connection with people here. Thus I still feel pretty lonely sometime; and Perth is still so very very quiet... and dull.

In Singapore, I'm alive. It's stressful, but I love it. Basically, I knew every corner of Singapore, from the malls, restaurants, and some hidden places. And more importantly, I've connections here. Friends and best friend and family.

However, I think I may need to find a new church, or to go another service in Singapore; because I don't serve in the youth service for my church anymore. But I still love my friends there.

This is not trials and errors. I've got to make a correct decision.

How? How?

William Lim

Daddy's Prayer

Today's Father's Day in Australia; and I want to be a part of it to celebrate this day. And so I did.

I made a short film that I personally dedicate it to my Dad, it's called "Daddy's Prayer". (If you haven't already watch it, I suggest you should).

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?profile=1&id=1759849142#!/video/video.php?v=10150263155335384&ref=notif&notif_t=like

The film was first screened at the youth service here in my church in Perth, and everyone there gave a big "Wow" on their mouth.

Today, the film almost made everyone during the morning service to feel emotional; it's a very touching video indeed. Even I, the maker, cried when watching this film alone at home yesterday night.

Well, I think we all get the main message today. Father's Day is to honour and commemorate our fathers.

So to my dad, I'd like to say a personal message here.

"Papi, thanks for bringing me up all these years. You've teached me such a valuable lessons while I was growing up.

You may have some bad habits which I really hate, till now. But get this, I certainly do not hate you. Mami may hate you for what you did to her, but that's ok; because I'll still be taking care of you when you're old. Maybe she'll learn to love you then.

I can't imagine growing up without you, because you were the one who looked after me most. Not Mami, and thus, I'll make sure that I'll look after you when you grow old.

Thank you for all your advices, they maybe boring and dull, but I still want to respect you. I'll take whatever good attitudes you own, make them into my own version. Those bad attitudes that you have, please for God's sake, throw them all away.

I was thinking of buying you a BMW 6 Series for your birthday when I have the money. :D

You probably have to wait for that to happen. Definitely not within 2 years time. Probably more. haha.

Life is good, but God is even better, that's why God gave me you as a father to me. Not just any father, but a true father.

So thank you for everything, even that BMW won't be enough to cover what you've done for me.

Sincerely, Happy Father's Day pi...

I love you...

Blessings"

William Lim

It Hurts

It hurts me when I can't make great films like:

"Slumdog Millionaire" (2008)
"Sex, Lies, and Videotape" (1989)
"The Class" (2008)
"REC" (2007)
"The Hurt Locker" (2009)
"What Women Want" (2000)
"All of Pixar's Animated films"

Sighhh..

It's tough being a filmmaker. haha

William Lim